Sunday, March 29, 2015
Thursday, March 26, 2015
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Sunday, March 22, 2015
One of my biggest pleas in our situation with Ty has been that God would be at work and use our story. We cling to Romans 8:28, "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." Even in our fear for Ty and his health, we know that God is at work and that good will come from a scary situation. We pray that God will use us and our journey to bring glory to Him. As hurtful as the comment was, I believe that God will work good through this and every part of our journey. So, this morning I continued to claim this verse.
A friend that Chris consulted last night, reminded us that the more we "put ourselves out there" the more we open ourselves up to criticism, etc. He is absolutely right. I don't know that we have ever, as a family, been more transparent or in a more likely situation to be used by God. Given that, we should expect to meet adversity and criticism - more than usual. As such, we have to prepare ourselves and seek God in every situation and in every response.
We have to push away fear and doubt and trust God. In reading this persons comments, the thought crossed my mind, "What if we get the miracle we have prayed for and God completely heals Ty? Will that make this person feel justified?" There will still be such a need - all the bills for prenatal specialist care, the time off work... the list goes on. I had to remind myself, that we can't fear and doubt, we just have to trust God. God has led so many of you to support us for a reason and we are so very grateful. God is using so many people and so many ways to provide for our needs and to support little Ty and his fight against CHD before it even begins outside of the womb. It is humbling and overwhelming and wonderful to see God working in our lives. He has a plan for Ty and for our family that might involve complete healing as we have asked - either before birth in the form of a miracle or after at the hands of skilled doctors. He may even have a different plan. Our job is just trust, no matter what adversity we face and no matter what challenges come our way. Trust Him and praise Him in all things.
This morning I found another verse that brought me comfort. Matthew 5:11, "Blessed are you when people insult you and persecute you, and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of Me." I'm not sure what the motive was of the criticism we received, but God will work through that as well. I have come to the conclusion that the best reply is no reply, but prayer. I will not reply directly on email to the comment that was left. I will delete it and pray for the person who sent it. I will pray that God will work in their heart and reveal himself and his great work to them.
As for why I am acknowledging the comment on my blog? In reading this morning on the biblical way to respond to criticism I found this: "Ask the Lord to use false accusations as a platform to display greater courage, faith, and hope in the Lord's ability to cause all things to work together for good." and "Never doubt God's ability to send the most unlikely people, provisions, and processes to deliver you." I felt led to share, to continue to be transparent. This isn't intended as a reply to the person who left the comment, but as a way to share our journey - every part of it - publicly, which is the reason this blog exists. I have no idea how God will use this, or any part of our journey, but I trust that there is purpose and He will.
Posted by Meagan at 6:07 AM
Saturday, March 21, 2015
Tuesday, March 10, 2015
I spend another day at Vanderbilt yesterday checking up on our little man. Maybe I should start calling him big man. He is weighing in at 7 pounds now with a predicted pound-a-week gain for these last two weeks. I am SO not prepared to give birth to a 9 pound baby, but the machines are just estimating his weight, so there is a margin of error there. I figure God knows the perfect size for him to be and that's what he will be, so no since in worrying over it.